presumptuous

There is no question: I really admire Godmother. She knows her stuff. And this is not about her, exactly, or her opinions: this is about exploring my own. I don't feel the same way about the Instant-90 availability as she does, and as she expressed via Matthew Rossi. I don't believe it's a "if you don't like leveling a class, you WILL not like playing it." To me, a woman of rainbow blends and shape-shifting opinions, I see this more as a "may" not a will, or a 'perhaps' than a must. The thing is, I have tried every class, on both Horde and Alliance; the only thing I haven't done is varied my gender choice.

But here's the thing: in a dichotomous world, black or white, it does irk me when others make decisions about my sand box. No one is in my head (though sweet baby murlocs I sure do expose a lot of the inner Matty), and no one knows my motivations for anything (sometimes not even myself). I feel I've earned the right that if I want to boost a warrior to 90 and see what it's like to play a class at the end level with all the tools and tricks, that's my right as a consumer -- this service is offered, and I plan to take advantage of it. Now, that's not to say there aren't already a boatload of players out there who got to 90, got the Timeless gear, get into LFR, and are horrific. I know. I play with them ALL THE EFFING TIME. And you know what? I never say one word. You know why? I don't know if that player is being a troll, a noob, or is someone's little boy who's trying to have fun, or someone's autistic nephew who's having a grand time, or some adult who's trying to learn something new.

I wish sometimes I could be more like Godmother: I wish I could be as decisive and concrete, to know exactly how I feel at any given moment. I envy that quality: my boss has it, and I don't, and I'm the one who goes home in tears. Trust me, she hasn't shed one tear over worry over me. Heck, even CD Rogue can be as concrete as they come. But I am not: I am abstract, I am random, and I want to mix the paints and color outside the lines. I appreciate everything Blizzard has ever done to make playing more fun for an altaholic like me, to give me the chance to experiment, learn, and yes, re-learn.

Now back to my sand box. I cleaned out the cat poop, and found a new shovel. Oh look! There's the hose, and some tiny army men, too - time to build something new.